funny story

it’s kind of a funny story-
how disgruntled life can be,
in short passages, we lose,
find a reimbursed amount
of despair, the ache to let go,
not dragging anymore one day,
a step taken where winds await,

a story told, yet is unknown,
the body counts, owe nothing,
the end doth come without cure

(For Ned Vizzini)

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It was sad to know about the passing of Galen Haynes, aka G-man. May he rest in peace.
Linking it up with Flash 55 at With Real Toads and Poetry Pantry at PU.
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“Life can’t be cured, but it can be managed.”
Ned Vizzini, It’s Kind of a Funny Story

A self I have that kills when I am looking away

there I am decaying in

garbled words that escape my mouth,

divine intervention necessary

to keep me balanced on the ground,

as I burst open my tongue

throwing darts of mantras of

the language inherent in my nature

(which I would understand but I couldn’t),

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that replies to stories of the future devised

that coils around my toes, up my thighs

piercing the heart with screeching pain

of ability hindered by self

that disintegrates with the slightest touch,

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I am wicked, wane, vulturous, picking,

biting into my own putrid flesh

that reeks of ignorance and curse

of being the being that I am,

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the night doesn’t offer condolences

but hypnotizes me in a lullaby

and the day virtuously smiles

keeping me adrift on a rowing boat

that only stays afloat to be falling apart,

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they come and suck my vicious blood

to be cursed with my curse that is,

they arrive and leave their marks

which I rip apart to flow more of my self

as a bait for the poor enemy to consume me

before I dissect myself into pieces

spread on a broken road, lungs deflated,

stomach churning feet away, and my heart

in my palms, leaking, shrieking, as life

strangles it into numbness and there’s silence

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Available For Free!

Company: Life Co. Ltd.

Brand Name: Durable Depression

Tagline: A hollow darkness is what prevails in the end.

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Free! Free! Free!

available absolutely,

adamantly free,

whisper in your friend’s ears

or shout out loud

spitting on your microphones,

let everybody know,

let anybody and everybody know-

the dying man at the pier,

infant in the nursery,

the troubled actress,

the senile scientist,

masochistic husband,

a gullible wife,

stern mother-in-law,

the don of the mafia,

a middle school bully,

shy little girl who believes in fairies,

the eunuch who wants a new life,

a chalk addicted rock star-

let everybody know,

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a poet’s soul is available for free,

come on dip your rags and

your dirty fingers and

the sickly nails of your toes,

drench your shampooed hair

in the filth of the words,

seeping out of this damaged soul,

take away with you-

some pain,

some lost compassion,

some torn dreams,

some of the bloody emotions,

some of the misinterpreted anger,

some of the unacknowledged hatred,

also that repetitive imagination,

those fervent wishes never coming true,

don’t forget the prickling thoughts,

or the ice-cold dead voice,

and the monstrosity of those feelings,

or that numbing numbness-

take it all away,

empty this tank of every single thing,

not a drop to be left behind,

it has no use anymore,

but for the hollowness,

that would be left behind

perpetuating forever

in its hollow state.

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*For dVerse Poetics where Brian has prompted us to use slogans and catchphrases in poetry. I couldn’t think of an entirely written poem of slogans. 

7 Distractions When Having A Bad Time

We all feel bad sometimes. Sadness invades the whole thought-process and we could do nothing but being melancholic about our whole situation. There is another bad, when you are in depression, you lose yourself in the world that pulsates within the contours of your mind. These are the times when you tend to hurt yourself. Sometimes you make a decision you might regret later on. Just remember you are not alone and try to distract yourself away from your own self. That is a way of dealing with it. There are medications, which might turn your mind off and make you go to sleep but distractions are a much better alternative according to me.

Here I am going to discuss seven such distractions:-

1. Talk to Someone: You tend to part yourself from the world when something like that happens. You want no living soul in your vicinity but still talk to some one. Look for a friend, a family member, who would understand you and let everything be released- all the sadness, hurts, confusion, everything.

If you do not have a person like that in your life, you can talk to some one reliable on the internet, some one you have known quite a while and some one who is aware of your situation. Talk it out. Just relieve yourself of all your doubts, of your hopelessness, and of all your thoughts that are killing you.

2. Write: Writing is a good therapy. If you do not think you can bear talking to anyone, write down. Write down everything- every thought, every feeling, every emotion coursing through your mind. Write it down. You have to bring it all out of your system.

I know it is hard to do so but confront it. You cannot hide forever- just write. It would not hurt.

3. Let the tears flow: Tears signify your inner-voice, which is telling you to adopt silence and stream down all your worries away through those emeralds that appear in your eyes. Some might think shedding tears is the ultimate sign of weakness but that is not true. You are strong if you cry because you are letting yourself react to your situation in a way, which might help you get over it.

Once after you have let them flow, you tend to feel a little better or many times tired. Just lie down and take a nap. When you wake up, things would be much better.

4. Read a book: Escaping into a fiction world is a good way but still, it must be adopted once you have tried fighting against your sadness and if you do not feel any better, book is your safe haven.

It is also necessary for you to read a book which would not trigger emotions of hopelessness in you. Always read a book that tells a story or may be read one you have already read but only those which wouldn’t make you feel bad about yourself.

5. Watch a movie: Yes, like a book, you can find solace in a movie as well. But just like in case of a book, please be careful in the type of movie you are watching. Avoid sad movies in simple words; select a humor or a suspense thriller.

6. Eat something: Food plays a very important role for our well-being. It is necessary for you to be healthy physically in order to maintain your mental health. Eat healthy meals; drink a glass of milk or some fresh juice. Have ample amount of proteins and vitamins.  Adopt it for every time.

But do not binge eat when you are sad. Yes, food might seem like a very good way of dealing with things. I have adopted it myself a number of times but I have regretted it later on every time. Hence, eat healthy when having a bad time and in moderate amounts, only as much as you are capable of ingesting.

7. Sleep: Sometimes lack of sleep brings you to such a situation. Thus, always sleep for appropriate amount of hours and try to have a fixed pattern of sleep; meaning go to bed at the same time every day. When you are feeling bad, just lie down and try to think of something positive or just frame a story in your mind.

Distract yourself by your own imagination and creativity and try to sleep it away.

Okay, I have discussed some of the ways you can distract yourself when you are having a bad time. This is an opinionated piece. I never meant to harm anyone’s sentiments. These are just my opinions. I haven’t written with a medical point of view. I am just trying to suggest something that has worked for me in the past. If you are clinically depressed and are on your medication, take it as your doctor has prescribed you.

Some times nothing works. Just keep one thing in mind always, you have to survive. You have to go through it. There will be a much better tomorrow. You can do it. You can fight it. You can.

opposite twins

opposite twins

residing in a dark alcove,

guarded by demonic angels

fighting for eternity;

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the first calls for light

to enter the chamber

and is ready to traverse

along the labyrinth of emotions;

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the other one ceases the struggle,

unspoken, move towards

the darkest part of the prison

and glare at his other half-

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better or not,

with those dead eyes;

the former shrugs in response

and go to join the worse division;

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some time will pass out

and another battle would surge

between the two brothers,

rooted in the same soul.

* Written in response to the dVerse Writing Prompt

RCC Goals for the Week

I recently joined the Rome Construction Crew which is a group of bloggers aiming to achieve their goals through mutual support and understanding.

As much as I know, the crew members plan out their goals for every week and at the end of the week, they check out if they have been successful in achieving them or not. Even if it is not so, that is what I am going to do. I know I am quite late but still, I would plan out my goals for this week now which are as follows-

1. Writing Goals:- (i) Write short-stories(ranging from 100-1000 words) and he usual poems.

(ii) Work on a book of short-stories, assemble the stories from the hard drive and those published long time before on the blog.

(iii) Try to find more about the freelancing opportunities.

2. Mental-health related goals:- (i)  Think about the future, without any anxiety and try to find out what I am going to do next.

(ii) Try to socialize; contact old acquaintances.

(iii) Try to speak minimum, because I feel frustrated later on if I speak more and try to avoid talkative people.

3. Physical-health related goals:- (i) Try to participate in physical activities.

(ii) Take a short walk every day.

(iii) Try to improve my stamina so that I won’t feel tired all day.

4. Reading goals:- (i) Complete reading 2 more books at least.

(ii) Read the poems by Poe and Sylvia Plath.

That is all. I know they are quite difficult for me, but I have to do something, right? I hope I will be able to accomplish most of these goals.

leaving for her journey

Hello bloggers,

I got a wonderful opportunity to work with the lovely Merbear and you know what, we ended up creating this poem together. Please read and share your views.

leaving for her journey

She was binding her hair in a bun

Readying herself for the journey ahead

Which may take her to distances unknown

Bring in her the sense of being alive

She had never felt ever before

She was leaving behind all her fears

For the adventure that awaited her

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Her stomach coiled like a snake

Past torments licking at her heels

Dare she run so fast and proud?

Her life not worthy of a fairy tale

She sighs so loudly she startles herself

Trapped emotions needing to meet air

Praying to breathe air

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The stream of tears fell down her cheeks

Which she didn’t even care to wipe away

She was looking for a happy ending

Which she had to find herself in her own way

She picked up her hand bag of happy memories

And moved ahead towards her cage door

And pushed it open, it wasn’t locked

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Desperate echoes of her soul

Beckoning to her aching heart

Calling her to where she needs to be

She trembles with trepidation

Limbs weakened by the struggle

Her life never drawn before

By her own personal design

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She was never meant to be free

Doubts crossing her mind

When she had just seen the sunshine

But she would never return back

And thence, she flies away

Its true leaving is difficult but

Once you have left, it is easy not to turn back

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Then the breeze whispered her name

A lullaby warm and soothing

Like balm for her battered soul

Bringing her back to herself

Oh, she thought she had been lost!

Smiling inside herself with pure joy

For her true path was known all along