this is a communion of mockery

and it is bestiality that sucks
blood from my passion,

pin me down by your gaze, subdued,
I cry out, bite my spirit into chunks
of my broken armor, burn me alive

this instant, plunge my back with
the sword of impudence, against
my wish, but my wish is held true

in the recesses of this panorama
where nothing is seen, and everything
is naked.

punch my chest to make me numb,
your nails piercing me through
and through, till nothing is left
unterritorized. I’m no longer alive.

dead, I am, to the shadows that fall
on your naked back, I plunge my hatred
inside you with a power of resurgence,

of

this treachery of an evening, that lives
beyond the realm of an everlasting night.

let me be the trickster, let me
be the one to wrench open your arms
and embrace you with my lethal dance.

let me wrestle around the sky where
the sun has been plundered, disgraced.

let me eat the flavorless fruit
of this mockery of life, of passion.

let this night line my shores again.
let this night never touch me again.

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The year before last, I took up a challenge to write and publish 30 poems in 30 days of November. And I finished it. This year, I am going to try and imitate it. This is Poem # 1.
Linking it up with Poets United Poetry Pantry.

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Day 25: A Book You Wish More People Would’ve Read

I never thought about it. Do I wish that some one would read a book because I have liked it? Nah! Everyone has their own choices, their own desires, regarding the books that they want to read. So, I am going to mold the question to something like, “If some one asks for your suggestion regarding the books he/she shall read, which books would you suggest?”

If that is the case, then I would suggest Looking for Alaska or Paper Towns by John Green to be read particularly by those who are in the age group of 13-19 and 40-50: You would ask me why there is such a contrast in the age groups. I’d advise the teenagers to read it to understand their own thought-process and acknowledge the life situations coming forth for them. And I ask the parents of these teenagers (who are generally between 40-50 years of age) to read them so as to understand their kids better and support them appropriately as they are growing up.

Now, when I have suggested so. I will give a brief overview of these two books.

Looking for Alaska is a tale of friendship primarily but it is also a tale of how things are perceived at an age when you are no longer a child, neither are you an adult. Your thought processes change and you start to think about life and its sorrows. This book follows the narrator Miles as he goes to the boarding school and befriends new people, particularly Chip Martin (his room mate) and a personality named Alaska. This book is divided into two portions- Before and After and they are divided by an event that changes their lives.

That event has a lot of significance in the book but much more than the after effects of it, I liked how the viewpoints of these characters develop through time and their experiences, how they come out to be more understanding pupils. They ask questions and they search answers for them and they end up finding their own answers.

Paper Towns is another novel which explores the lifestyle of teenagers and how they see relationships. This time the book follows the story of narrator Quentin Jacobsen who is in love forever with his idea of a free spirit named Margo Roth Spiegelman. It has quite a lot of similarity with the earlier book but it follows a different plot line and explores some new things. I earlier wrote he is in love with the idea because that is true because he doesn’t even know the girl properly; he just has an idea of who she is and he is crazy about that idea only.

These perceptive ideas is what makes the basis of this book. After a night of adventure with Margo, he founds that she has disappeared and here he decides to go looking for her with the help of his friends. Behind this plot line hides certain stances in the story where our protagonist comes with a new understanding of who people are. They are not what they appear to be, they all have a side no one knows of but still it is there and it is a part of their life.

Isn’t it too much? I must end it now. Whoop! You must be tired reading it all. Thanks for reading. That is all I have got to share right now but for one other thing:

I have started yet another blog (no. of blogs I have- 5) particularly for my reading pursuits. You can visit and follow me at HA Reads Books. But since I started the 30 Day Challenge on this site, I will be completing it here only. But I will be posting the book reviews and other things related on the new blog from now on.

Happy Reading guys!

Day 20: Favorite Romance Book

Okay, I know people, especially guys, hesitate from telling that they have read romantic books. I am sometimes like that, if truth be said. But I am going to answer the question honestly today. Yes, I have read some romantic books. If you like reading, you can read anything. You do not think about the theme or genre then.

Yes, there are certain books which you can not read because they are just not for you. It isn’t necessary for you to like a popular book. I would raise my hand if you ask a group of men if they have tried reading Fifty Shades of Grey. I dd try but it was not for me. Hence, I left it after reading twenty pages or so. But that is not what I am asked to discuss today. I just wanted to notify that you must not be embarrassed of the books you read.

I have read Twilight series at least twice. People may roll their eyes, so what? I enjoyed reading it. There is nothing wrong in that or is it!? Okay, I am deviating from the topic.

Back to the question, I have read majorly romantic books by Sarah Dessen and Nicholas Sparks. They were an alright read but I never liked them to an extent that I would want to discuss about them. I will rather discuss a book I have mentioned in earlier posts but you may not have possibly read it or even heard of it.

This book is One Day by David Nicholls. It is a very simple tale of two people and their relationship. The book narrates the events of a single day year after year for 20 years, telling the story of these two people. Sometimes they are together while sometimes they are not. It progresses from their first meeting to various stages of their life as the meaning of their relationship changes over time.

Things I like about this book:

1. The character-sketch is brilliant. It is one of the best I have read in the romantic genre.

2. The story is very interesting. Events of a single day year after year, how thrilling is that!

3. The story actually talks about a relationship and its development from the first meeting onward. Moreover, it is not at all cheesy.

4. The story comes full-circle in the end. I particularly liked how the emotions are embedded in this book. And when I say this story is based on the lives of these two main characters, that is not the only thing. There are some other characters that leave an impression on you.

That is all.

Day 19: Favorite book turned into a movie

Continuing with the 30 Day Book Challenge, it is time to discuss the film adaptations of your most liked books. I am rather discussing here the film adaptations I didn’t like at all because they had ruined the story from the book and those which I liked, for they remained true to the story. I have just taken the question, a step further.

Some of the movies I did not like are-

1. It’s Kind of A Funny Story: This is the first novel in which I could relate with the protagonist because of the same “situations” in life. The fact was that I read this novel around the time when I started acknowledging my own mental-health related problems. I did not feel such connection with the movie, which was really strange according to me. The novel made me understand about the characters, while the movie was a mess in which I could not understand what was happening.

One scene which was true to a few lines of the novel

2. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince: This is one of the most important books in the series because it tells of the story of Voldemort and how he turned out to be as he was, but it was thoroughly ignored in the movie. The movie was all about absurd relationships (which is not the main theme of Harry Potter) and some incidents which were completely out of context.

3. The Silver Linings Playbook: A thought-provoking book has been turned into a love story in the movie. The way the depression is portrayed in the movie seemed to me quite radical. I just didn’t like the entire setting. They must have informed before hand that it was going to be a movie based on the game of football.

And the movies I liked-

1. The Perks of Being A Wallflower: This is one movie which complied with the story and presented the characters as they were meant to be. the main difference here is that the movie is directed by Stephen Chbosky, who is also the author of the novel. That really worked.

2. Never Let Me Go: I watched the movie before I read the novel (also in case of The Silver Linings Playbook). I liked the movie originally and continued to like it even after reading the novel. Because the movie had summarized the events of the novel in an amazing way so that nothing important is left.  Reading the novel afterwards was just knowing more about the characters and the story.

Day 18: A Book That Made You Laugh

First of all, I haven’t read any book which could be pertained to be belonging to the humor genre. I tried reading Hitchhiker’s Guide To Galaxy but I found it morbid rather than funny. I rather laugh at the incidents from the books I read, whether they are a drama or an adult fiction.

Some of these books are-

1. The Help by Kathryn Stockett: It is a brilliant book with all the elements of life, sadness, racism and even some humor, gathered together in a bundle which is this book. I loved Minny Jackson and her “sassiness” a lot. There were certain stances where I couldn’t control my laughter, like Minnie’s comments about Celia Foote or the chocolate pie incident (Hilly’s mother buying the pie for her, that was hilarious). If you haven’t read the book, I won’t spoil the fun. Go grab a copy now.

2. PS I Love You by Cecelia Ahern: This is the only chick lit which I read and completed, and that is not because of the roots of sadness in this book but because of certain funny events that span throughout the story, like when the three friends are stranded on a raft far away from the beach and their mad conversation.

3. A Year in Provence by Peter Mayle: It is a nonfiction book, in which the author discusses his first years living in Provence in France. It is a warm tale and quite funny as well, as the author informs of the lifestyle of his neighbors and the damn funny conversations that ensue between them and the difficulties they had to deal with to get some repairs done as well as because of the distant friends who would invite themselves at their place. It was indeed a fun read.

I guess, that much is enough for today.

Day 17: Favorite Quote from A Book

I have many favorite quotes that come from a variety of books. Some of them are:-

“Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (…) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”
— John Green (Looking for Alaska)

“But there was something I liked about the idea of those seeds buried so deep having at least a chance to emerge”
— Sarah Dessen

“We took away your art because we thought it would reveal your souls. Or to put it more finely, we did it to prove you had souls at all.”
— Kazuo Ishiguro (Never Let Me Go)

“What is pertinent is the calmness of beauty, its sense of restraint. It is as though the land knows of its own beauty, its own greatness, and feels no need to shout it.”
— Kazuo Ishiguro (The Remains of the Day)

“Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.”
— J.D. Salinger (The Catcher in the Rye)

“No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.”
— Jay Asher (Thirteen Reasons Why)

“When did we see each other face-to-face? Not until you saw into my cracks and I saw into yours. Before that, we were just looking at ideas of each other, like looking at your window shade but never seeing inside. But once the vessel cracks, the light can get in. The light can get out.”
— John Green (Paper Towns)

I will not write anything else but this:-

“A quote is something that grabs your heart; you feel its absence in your chest because it has been stolen by the words that you thought were written just for you.”

-HA

Day 11: A Book You Hated

Hate is an intense word. I would not use this word for anything in the whole world. I am going to rather discuss about the books which made me mad or angry.

First of all, I regret ever trying to read Vampire Diaries by L.J. Smith.

There are multiple series with so many books! Why didn’t the world end in 2012!?

I made myself read them because I thought the story would become interesting. It was only in the middle of the third or fourth book (I don’t remember which… I wouldn’t want to remember either) that I lost my temper. Of course, I never completed that book, neither did I move on with the series. The problem with me was that the story was so morose and ugly that I couldn’t continue it after when a moment came which tortured my mind emotionally. Yes, it had that effect on me. If it is possible, I would burn all the books (all known copies) of these series and erase it entirely from the internet because world would definitely be a better place then. Still no hatred.

Another such book is Lightning by Danielle Steel. My review for the book on goodreads is as follows:-

This book is a gross mixture of some unrealistic and grotesque circumstances and it is a joke of the relationships. The story of Alex, a happy woman after 17 years of marriage comes to know that she has breast cancer and she has to go through mastectomy and chemotherapy; she has a hellish time going through it all while her amazing husband remains distant or angry, depending on his mood and gets tangled in an extra-marital affair. This is when she comes closer to her colleague who supports her through the hard times and they fell in love. And then one day, trouble befalls her husband and he is charged with the crimes of fraud and embezzlement and he realizes how much he loves his wife, who is now cured.

What happens next!? Our worthless protagonist realizes she still loves her husband and that very husband is saved from going to prison. And what happens to that person who helped her through hard times? – He is left in the dumpster all alone.

In the beginning, you sympathize with the protagonist but then, it is nothing. It is a play of emotions, which is not portrayed in the right away. The book could have been better if the author had created believable characters with a distinct personality. But it wasn’t so.

I do not like the plot line itself. But that is my opinion. It is full of absurdities to the very core. It is definitely a book, I would never open again because it somehow made me furious and enraged by the end of it.

Still no hatred.

I guess that is more than enough for today’s prompt. 😉 🙂