Fearless, strong, resilient…

Fearless, strong, resilient,

the words that resonate from beings around me

wanting me to be the very same

but how can I tell them,

that I have broken down

beyond repair

I have chosen to be miserable

I am well beyond in that dark hole

where even some help, some pull from above

can’t bring me out

I am going to survive there, half dead

and even stop surviving one day just like that.