
a kind of gloom sets in the body,
that you can feel lying underneath
your breath,
your words careful, so that they do not
harm the light, your silence loud
enough to make your presence known,
not to counter the void left behind
but to embellish it with your steps
as you move here and there, and
speak solemnly in the shimmer of
another pain that may always stay
within, like a story’s sudden end —
death always leaves one astounded,
even if it is writ in the sky, and on
our fingers, as we touch and hold
each other, we know it is there in
our very blood, and yet it shocks &
deprives us of our effort to under-
stand its proximity when it slithers
inside the room like a voice caught
from miles away to prick our ear,
and say what was not awaited but
known, visible just as the stars are,
until they disappear in a blank fog
and the eyes don’t want to see or
be seen any more.
© Anmol Arora
Something I wrote yesterday after we got to know of my uncle’s passing.
Image source (MOURNING CHANT OF A WHALE, 2014, by Hari Beierl)
Linking it up with the Tuesday Platform at With Real Toads
I love that ending and the loud silence. I’ve always felt that when a loved one dies a part of me leaves with them and a part of comes into me. I look through the eyes they don’t have.
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I am so sorry for your loss. Your words are eloquent in their pain.
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So sorry for your loss, HA………death is always a shock. We know it exists, but are never prepared for its happening.
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Yes, even the stars can disappear in a flash. I’m sorry for your loss.
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You’ve encapsulated the devastation of death in this poem, Anmol; I like that you describe grief as ‘a kind of gloom… lying underneath your breath’. I identified with ‘silence loud enough to make your presence known’, although my mother was silent with dementia long before she died.
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“LIke a story’s sudden end”…yes it always feels too soon. This is poignant and lovely HA!!! I know he will be missed by you and all who loved him. My heart goes out to you all.
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I’m so sorry for your loss Anmol. You described death’s stealth aptly- while at the same time touching on the fading of life. Take care during this difficult time.
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Jesus, this is brilliant.
“your words careful, so that they do not
harm the light” … so beautiful
“not to counter the void left behind
but to embellish it with your steps” … ❤
This is exactly how I was feeling last week, leading up to my mother’s funeral. I feel like I’m on the other side of this after finding peace there with all her loved ones gathered, though I do know it will creep back up on me at times — that heaviness and darkness.
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This is incredible and heartbreaking, so sorry for your loss, Anmol.
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your words careful, so that they do not harm the light,… beautifully written.. so sorry for your loss Anmol.
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My condolences for the loss of your uncle. My prayers for you and your family in this difficult time. Death does leave one astounded. Take care Anmol.
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There is a kind of end of year depression which is hard to avoid – perhaps the sense of loss, death, failed hopes and dreams.
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Poignant, deep and true!
“your silence loud
enough to make your presence known” these lines touched me
Om Shanti for your uncle!
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kaykuala
until they disappear in a blank fog
and the eyes don’t want to see or
be seen any more.
it seems to be a reluctant participant in a hurry! Wonderful take HA!
Hank
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Like Laura Jane Grace sings: “you’re never really sure that your living until you’re totally sure that you’re dying.”
The scope of this poem ranges from intimate touch to the cold light of the cosmic stars. Like creation, we know it is all for us, because we are here to know it. The alloyed day is brief, making the touch and the starlight more precious. I read this poem in sorrow and joy.
Faith calls us to wait
Breathing out a bluer sky
Better just love now
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What a beautiful comment! Thank you, Lona, for sharing your words.
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So sorry to hear of your loss. Take care.
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So sorry to hear of your loss. Take care.
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