handed over to me, the manuscript to read-
the name of the historical kings and queens,
the years and locations of their reign and wars,
the politics involved, the artifacts found,
I clasped the bound, yet loose pages,
into my fist to climb over to the roof,
(some 35 feet high, and 18 feet wide)
allotted time was equivalent, to my capability to
record all the words into my eyes, onto my tongue,
(to recite for the oral test later by the tutor),
that day, I was too distracted by the fire streaks,
running through, the evening sky of dull blue,
and even though I had a task to do, I perched
on a thick wall, the boundary of the terrace,
deep in thought, of the thoughts of an 11 year old,
the colours changed, from crimson to lilac, and
in the end, to what blush could be of the embers,
my ears dumb, to the hollering of other kids, who
played beneath my standing, on the street-
hide and seek, iron-wood, i-spy, but I knew little
of them, my conscious aware of those lives,
of the kids, liberated to bawl and call, while
I was captivated, by the free thinking of my own mind,
and I wonder if that was the very moment, when
I grew up and left away, storing the childish things
into the bubbles of memory, and moved ahead
to realize all what is life, who I am, the questions
that would have appeared, so heightened for
my lanky body, I was a little chubby… now I smile
at what came to pass that day, that twilight,
because I am still that same child, who couldn’t
be like others of my age, I am a single player,
just me, as I am with myself, amusing myself,
within my own framework and knowledge,
the act of thinking, that day, had become my new game
.
This is tagged as the post for 10 November for NaBloPoMo. If you want to read the previous 9 poems of this month… just drag your icon to the drop-down menu named Home, within which you would find poetry, within which you would find a category by the name of NaBloPoMo.
This is a very moving poem, HA. I think we all have inside of ourselves that child we were then….. being a ‘single player’ either as a child or an adult is not at all a bad thing! In fact, I would imagine a lot of poets can identify in some way.
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i think it’s not easy if we realize that we don’t fit in with the other kids.. there was a time when i loved to stay inside to read when the others were playing– i had a best friend though and she somehow always managed to get me out to the others again after a bit…smiles
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” I am still that same child” – interesting how we grow up still feeling that inside we are still the same. Although I enjoyed playing with a few others, I also liked my own company and read profusely.
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A single player, sometimes we don’t fit with others and their games ~ We just need to accept it and move on ~
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Wonderful. I haven’t grown up, and my mind is my playground..though in my older age, I crave that innocence again.
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This spoke to my heart. Sometimes our minds are full of more wonder than the earth can ever hold.
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You took some of us back ~ a journey through our innocence, our quirky ways ~ not wishing to conform ~ not believing we could ~ just to be us ~ who we are..who we were.. Very moving Anmol.
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This, in a very good way, reminded me of Paul Simon lyrics:
“I have my books
And my poetry to protect me.
I am shielded in my armor.”
Thank you for the share.
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I can definitely relate to this… it’s very moving
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its hard, the day that innocence dies….that we put away the toys of our youth…an intriguing close…we are one player but we def ripple out…and as they think hopefully they too will come to the realizations…
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But what the narrator saw! If innocence dies so that doors of perception open … It seems rather like an expansion than a loss. All hail seeing for oneself!
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brilliant.. some kids grow up sooner, if at all 😉 but it’s good to keep that child within.
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I enjoyed reading about your younger self HA!
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I wonder how many here that thrive in solitude, still enjoy company.. what we were as children stay within,
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I think recently I told you that a poem of yours was my favorite so far…well, this one has taken over. Perhaps because I relate to it. I found myself on the roof of my grandfather’s garage, thinking, at a very young age.
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loved reading this poem, especially the last few lines. I could relate to those so well.
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that was def a moment of illumination when this new game was discovered…………greatly enjoyed ….
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I refuse to grow up, but I still love this.
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I can relate, a bit. Beautifully penned. 🙂
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Lovely poem … I think as writers we tend to be more introspective & introverted … as children and into adulthood. I like it that way. Smiles 🙂
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In school too we are forced to mug down history notes but apart from mugging up I think learning from the mistakes is important.
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Sensual writing! Now when I think about that time of CHANGE, I can’t tell if it was a leap forward or a strong reverse back to beginning of mankind! 😀 I guess one should take the best of this experience before it’ll get the best out of him 🙂
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Hurrah for the non-conformers! 🙂
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